It’s strange really. I’ve heard it said since I was 13 that youth is a time to ‘find yourself,’ and that it takes until you’re 24 or something before you really know your identity, but one year out from that deadline I’ve still got a long way to go!
There’s nothing quite like having to make big decisions about your future to get you thinking about who you are. I’ve found it very interesting these past few months trying to figure out what sort of job would satisfy me, where in the world I’d like to live and what sort of mark I’d like to leave on the world. It’s a complex balance, with all my varied passions, dreams and interests on one side, and my doubts and fears on the other, and trying to reconcile them all into the one person that is me. Everything will work out in time, as they say, but when it’s time to make a decision that will largely affect how your future will play out it’s hard to ignore these questions.
The main theme that my thoughts come back to is that I’d like a surveying job where I get to fly around in a helicopter.
On a slightly different note, I’ve been wondering how to reconcile being confident in who you are with being inspired to be a better person. I’m lucky enough to have plenty of friends around me who possess desirable qualities in greater measure than me, and the tricky thing is to allow myself to be inspired by them without feeling even slightly gutted that I don’t already have those qualities.
This post has just been more questions than answers sorry, but I guess that’s just the nature of my thoughts on this at the moment!